I trained at Laban and have been London based ever since. I am currently working with Yael Flexer’s Bedlam Dance Company as a performer and teacher. I have also performed with Kerry Nicholls, Sirens Crosing and Transitions amongst others. My teaching experience has involved working for Laban, London Contemporary Dance School, London Studio Centre, GDA and The Place.

Having worked for eight years as an independent dance artist, creating, performing, teaching, I feel that right now I need to reflect. Reflect on what I do and why I do it.

The need to reassess my creativity seems paramount. When I make material, task, flow and rhythm define what I create. It feels fairly obvious to me when I have reached a task conclusion, I don’t often go back to refine.

Maybe now it’s clear why I appled to Bank. I want to move away from the feeling ‘I’ve done that before’ and the thinking ‘I recognise that rhythm’. I want to find more within my capacity as a dancer, discover rather than re-discover. Is it possible to actually discover?

To be continued…

A small enlightenment on day 2 – long may it continue..

Of course then the origin of the thought had to be re-discovered (breath) and allowed to inform and embody the moving. It was hard to dis-courage and be aware of the extra bits, the fluff that Joe mentioned.

I found myself over preparing to access the intention. I think I tend to rely on preparation in an attempt to embody the intention. Maybe effort, the wanting to do it right, gets in the way. The idea regarding different outcomes to the same intention should/could be an aid to conquer this – that’s my challenge.

I can feel inside crying out ‘tell me what to do!’

However I am resisting the urge to storm into the task – as I often do. I am trying to create some space for thoughts and ideas to emerge. Let’s hope they do..

I know it may seem like I’m pointing out the obvious (and to be honest I need to make it obvious for myself), but really going somewhere unknown is daunting. I do feel encouarged as I know I have made progress, but I need to go much further.

This week I realised that I crave reassurance from the outside. Why is it not enough that I, me, myself, my thoughts are not able to give value to my work? How can I adapt and implement another approach? Judge myself differently? Or maybe not judge at all?

I know that I have a tendancy to complete movement fully, the beginning, middle and end. That’s how I feel I embody quality within the form. When Sarah and Debs suggested I consider not completing every move with the same energy and muscularity (sounds obvious now), this opened up a new area for me to explore. The question that came to me was very much a link through the project so far. That the knowing of completion has to be linked to the intention behind the move, that remembering and attaching the meaning back to the thought creates opportunities for choice.

The next question for myself is how volume of or within the move can amplify it’s existence.

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